abyss of my heart

I stare out into the abyss of my heart.
To find nothing in this dark
This is my heart, my light too faint.
My life is stained, I fell to this pain
To my disdain, no matter how I train
Doomed to pain, I am drained
I am caged, stuck between the pages
Of the book of love, struggling I move ahead alone
This is the meaning of this poem
for whom I am loving, I go on without knowing.

I want to be held tight
but i am scared that she'll discover my night deep in my heart
I dart passed her questions just to live with her
to shield her I endure and take her pain
again I cry in pain for her, I strain and struggle
all I need is a cuddle. I hate this pain, the drain, the stain
I endure it for eternity like a flame enveloping my mind

can you feel, can you empaphize; no! It this epathy that caused this pain
created in the cell of lonliness. This I cannot stress, I act my best for this is my test
lest this confinement get the best of me.

confused, I lose to the abyss of my heart
to dark for anyone to know.